Dear Diary

Yeah, it’s our first day at kindergarten. I saw her with a pink ribbon on her hair. She’s sad and anxious, I took the seat beside her and gave the chocolate prize that my dad rewarded me because I woke up early that day. She loved the sweet treat and she smiled. Glad we became friends.

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Why did she have to be so forgetful? She forgot the book our teacher asked us to bring? I lend her mine, so she won’t stand at the corner as a punishment — I did. Yes, it’s embarrassing but for her, it felt nothing on me.

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We bid our goodbyes as the school year ended. Primary school was extra fun with her. My family have to move to the city, because of dad’s job. I won’t be able to be with her on middle school. I’ll pay her a visit when time permits.

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I haven’t mentioned her that my dad was reassigned back to our town, and we have to move back. It’s sophomore year, I surprised her and took the seat beside her, “Surprise”. We’re together again. Shookt face was painted on her face.

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I really enjoyed today’s bond with her, I liked the cookies her mom baked for us after a tiring day of teaching her to solve complex math problems. She’s a fast learner, her focused face makes her even more cute.

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John asked her to be his date for JS Prom, I failed to ask her first. She already said yes. I felt like I don’t want to go to the prom.

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Today is a normal day, no JS prom in mind. She messaged me that she was ditched by John, I asked where she is, I know she’s upset to what happened and brought some sweet treats.

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It’s college. I wish we had the same University. I missed her.

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We’re both free today, we talked. Seems she’s doing fine with one of her guy classmate. Someone who gives her sweet gestures. I smiled during our talk. And here I am, wishing that it should be me. I’m sappy (sad but happy for her).

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It’s her special day. I stood behind his groom. As I hug her, I whispered congratulations. I’m glad I took part on her wedding day. Nothing’s changed. I know she’s fine so am I.


This is my diary of feelings I’ve had towards her. I wish I had the courage to tell her earlier, but I was scared of losing the value of our friendship, and her. So I kept our relationship that way. If and only if I dared to let my feelings and thoughts in mind out.

I have loved her since childhood.

We should learn how to trust our feelings and take chances, don’t hesitate anymore or else you’ll miss it.

This spoke to me.

“Some untold stories tend to become the pages of some chapters”

Aishwarya Jayaraman

Stoy inspired from Yumi’s Diary. Read here.

You Always Have A Choice

You find yourself sitting on the rooftop at 2 AM, bathing at the moonlight, staring at the stars and not hearing anything from the whole town after it has gone to rest, (aside from the neighbor’s caterwauling cats as always).

Not a bad idea, just you in the middle. Peaceful. Quiet. Cold.

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Thinking how the day went so fast and soon enough the sun will erupt for the place to be busy once again. It’s during these calmest pauses and serene moments that you’ll realize, what your heart truly desires in life.

You have no one but your inner-self which will help you with what and where you incline to be.

Actually, it’s all in your front already. The choices and options were there. Maybe what hinders you is your fear, there’s so much more you can do and you can be if you’re not afraid. Think about it.

Fear will be gone if you choose the path where your heart truly desires. Trust me. It’s a tough choice to make knowing ahead that it will require your fullest potential, and you have to because it is where your mind goes when you wander.

Let your cells work for you. Come to think of this, why do you close your eyes when you’re praying, when you’re dreaming and even when you feel like crying? It’s because the most wonderful things in life are not being seen but only felt by the heart.

Every little step that you’ll take is what will make your journey complete. Enjoy every step of the way, fill your heart with it. You can’t go back and change what you chose to begin with. But you can start where you are and remold what you desire.

Your mind may always set fear, but let your heart break it. You always have a choice. Let go of what’s caging you. To the point that you set yourself free. And when you do, it’s during this time you truly live at the moment (and happiest).

You can sleep now.⁠ ⁠

Notes to Self

I call it a day! Now, I am here in my personal space, a corner in our house where I contemplate matters, write a thought or two, and get my job done.

As I stare out the window, the rain keeps on pouring, the sound of it is a piece of music in my ears, a lullaby I find peaceful and relaxing. It calms my weary soul. It feels amazing how a moment like this makes me think of my affirmations to stay sane and have a positive outlook in life. I believe it’s not a bad idea to share with you all what notes-to-self I keep on reminding myself every day.

But let me tell you that growing up, I know I’ve been hard to myself, glass half empty at times, and can’t deny that I used to compare my self to others. Now that I’m older, people and different instances in my life were placed which taught me lessons I needed to learn, though, in a hard way, I was able to somehow pull this list off.

#1 Be a Better Advocate for Yourself

I learned to know myself more, what I’m capable of, what my wants are, and whatnots. I always speak my mind for I know what’s right and not. Now, I stride my way when to say yes and no for such circumstances. Along the process, you should know thyself, know thy need, and ways how to take action to get it.

#2 A Broken Heart can Teach the Best Lessons of Life

I believe that there’s no wrong person in everyone’s life. Every person has been handpicked by God to play a specific role, to shape us to the kind of person He predestined us to be. I know that He placed a person I needed to teach me lessons. I might be broken and memories may bring back but from that, I can say I became stronger. So, let us be grateful, trust God for He has done nothing wrong.

#3 Don’t Clean Up the Cobwebs, Kill the Spider

Some problems and hurdles occur at times, and sometimes on repeat. Clearing the cobwebs till there’s none is good but it’s definitely not a bad thing to end the main cause to stop what’s knocking me down over and over again.

#4 Put a Space In Between Things

Now and then, I believe there’s a perfect time to pause for a moment when I needed to rest, and in my pursuit of peace of mind. Also applies to say NO at times, because no matter how hard you try, you can’t do everything at once honestly.

#5 Save a Seat to the One’s Who Choose You

Not everyone deserves a seat in the table of one’s life. I’m very open and real about things but as I grew older, I realize how to save special seats to certain people whom I trust and value. We share the common thoughts and uplift each other’s spirit. Release those who turned their back, and make space for the certain people who choose to stay.

#6 You Do You

Always remember not to measure your progress using someone else’s ruler. Well, I don’t live up with other’s expectations, knowing that I can’t control how people interpret my action and energy. If they can’t see me, they are not for me, and I’m not for them as well. At the moment, I learned to realize I’m no longer worried by the trivial things that once used to drain me.


The sound of the rain is so inviting. I’m getting sleepy now. Anyways, here’s to another note to self: Invest to put myself to bed early, haha. There a lot of other notes and affirmations I have in mind, on the list are the main deals I realized and learned. What about you? I know you have your list too. It could be way longer than mine, I’d be glad to read it on the comment section below. Care to share your notes to yourself? Till my next one.

How Much Of Your Life Has Already Been Lost To Waiting?

I just woke up from a deep sleep. This morning smells like dreams which I can’t remember. My eyes were blinded with the glare of the sun on the window pane. It’s 10 o’clock, woke up this late because I needed to work and finish my stuff last night to reach my quota and tick all the boxes of tasks to accomplish until my exhaustion. I’m fully recharged now and I want to write something motivating.


Let me ask you, how long have you been waiting? How many wins and how many losses? Think about it.

Learning to wait for things always fall into place, they say. But, you wait and wait for something then you felt sad about the outcome. Are you still going to wait?

Perhaps yes, I know you. You believe that, if it’s for you, then it will be given to you. And if it’s not for you, maybe it’s a redirection.

What if I tell you that there is no such thing as perfect timing and circumstances?

Waiting for the perfect time, waiting for your dream job, waiting for the promotion, waiting for the approval, waiting for someone to love you back, maybe someone to come back, or someone who will slap you and wake you from the reality that, timing doesn’t favor those who were ready, timing favors those who try and those who were not afraid.

Don’t wait for the perfect time, or for the things to get better. Don’t wait for the right opportunity, or even for the right one. Know that life will always give you lemons which will make things complicated. Why don’t you pull up your sleeves, burn the midnight oil, grit your teeth to get everything you want? It is just like riding a bicycle, you must step on the pedal over and over again to keep you moving.

The person you’ve been waiting will come if you’re worthy to be loved. The promotion and approval you’ve been wanting will happen if you worked even harder than those who work hard as well. The job you’ve been dreaming of will happen in your life if you’re willing and able to pursue it. And the perfect time you’ve been waiting all along will eventually come depending on when you will put yourself into the real action. Guess you’ll run out of time if you don’t do it now.

As I am writing this piece, the mood rises and the mixture of positivity is overflowing. Let me wind down this a bit and ask you.

What if you tried your best, and you still did not succeed?

There is the drive and the passion to get what you want, and yet life doesn’t give the favor to you.

Remember, timing favors those who try and who were not afraid. Yes, you tried but, were you fearless? Vanish the thinking “I tried but, I failed. Maybe it’s not for me, I’ll wait for the perfect time, instead.”

Oh, com’on! Have you not read or heard to someone about the proverb, “Fall seven times, stand up eight” Choose to never give up and strive for more.

In the end, it still depends upon you, I may not know where you are coming from, maybe it’s good for you to try and just wait for some time whenever you’re ready. Um, maybe if you try, sometimes the grass is greener on the other side, or you’ll succeed. Who knows?


Let us not become weary in doing good,
for at the proper time we will reap a harvest
if we do not give up
.

Galatians 6:9

What Makes You Happy?

I used to worry about my current situation for the future, but I realized how much important it is to focus on myself for once.


Suddenly, I felt like getting away alone somewhere far, or with someone I love. Listen to my old records of High School Musical tapes as I drive fast. Catch the waves of the sea, smell its brine, and spend hours sighting sea stars. Take pictures of the sunset. Start bonfire on an island. Lay with the sand under my feet and go star gazing. Sleep in the tent and play with the shadows of my hand.

But, all these things are way too far from reality. The truth is I’m stuck that sometimes I feel like I’m losing the drive to play my game.

Mid June, I am bombarded with stuffs to do, a sword to fight the new normal realm. I so wanted to start it in no time because it requires time and my full potential to get it done. There is my passion but I’m lacking the drive towards it. These feelings hit me and I realized it seems like I’m doing things because it’s necessary and I keep doing so because it’s what’s needed to keep going.

I’m dealt with situations like these asking myself, do I really want to do this, or I am just not ready? It feels like I’m stuck because I’m pushing a door that says pull perhaps.

I’ve been having twain realizations about this matter for a while now. It says this isn’t what my body want to do, it is somehow I am being forced to do such, so everyone can see that I’m on the right track and I’m doing the right thing. But my inner saboteur says, this is just a phase, maybe I need to rest and recharge to start again.

Well, in the first place I won’t be placed to where I am now if I really have no sense of likeness about what I do frankly. Maybe the negative feelings which bother me are just signs which tell me it’s not the right time to do these stuffs which make me mentally drained. Seems like I’m getting hard on myself to keep pushing so people can’t see negative or let say weak sides of me, so to speak, so I can avoid getting the invalidation about what I do. Causes me to carry the weight of their expectations.

I don’t know but, it’s just so sad to feel that most people, including me, do stuffs because we’re living up with other peoples standards.

If you can relate with this, I believe in the end, what’s left on you is the choice. Maybe the choice you’ve been choosing all along is what’s right and can make you feel unworried, but the question is are you happy? For once in your life, choose something that is not just right, but rightfully can make you happy instead.

I still have a choice, so whenever I feel like exploring places, get away with my car, listen to music, go to the beach, and meet people — I would definitely do. I think it’s brave from choosing my own happiness than to sacrifice it over the rolling waves that I know I can push away and decide to start and fight again anyway.

So this time, Breathe. Feel alive. Choose happiness — it is free after all.

Have You Ever Felt Tired Of Living Your Life?

Life moves pretty fast. Why don’t you stop and look around once in a while?


You may not notice your favorite toy when you were a kid that you liked to throw here and there and break its parts is now fully covered with dust. The childhood scent of crayola box that you used to sniff, faded overtime. Along with the leaves falling by your window from the tree that you used to climb back then, now drifting.

You may now blink, right before you set your foot forward to your whereabouts for the day, you will pass by the stray kids goofing and playing around on your way. You will hear calls on repeat from the peddlers of goods. When you caught a sight of them, you’ll notice wrinkles of hardship painted on their faces, and hard-earned sweat streaming down their necks. Hard sacrifices for their simple dreams — to eat for a day and live for another day.

While you stride on the narrow streets of your childhood place on your way to the bus station off to school and work, something in mind will hit you. A thought or two which will make you ponder about what you just saw, has something changed? Then, you’ll realize there’s none.

Now you’re sitting in the bus, and since your drop off point is the last, you chose the back seat to feel like you’re the main lead of the movie. You noticed the people standing in front of you. The one facing left who seems to be late incessantly looking at his wrist watch. On his right is the serious senior student, looks like he’s ready for a one-seat apart examination. Then there’r the recliners, seems like the whole world has heard all the battles they’ve started this morning. And of course the sleepers, whom are tired from a night-long wakefulness to finish their reports and staffs for work or school.

You will just ask yourself, do these people you are with, share the same problems as yours? You think maybe you all do, but fall into different categories. A long way ride it is, you can’t do anything but to think of some things and your mind is occupied with unwelcome thoughts which makes you emotionally tired. Bills are waving — electricity, rent, internet, plans, maintenance and others. You will then check your email inbox where requirements and duties are giving you a heads up to finish it in due time.

So maybe right now you’re stuck, you are asking yourself how can you get out of the hole you dug for yourself?


What you try to do is to stay positive and have optimistic point of view in this kind of negative situation. Realizations will bubble up like maybe you’re just feeling lazy, or somehow you made some sort of mistake which makes you feel stressed.

Then you’re looking at these messed up things as a chance for you to grow, because you believe that when life gives you lemons, you make lemonades which means you keep yourself feel encouraged in the face of adversity.

You believe in fate and faith, though at times it’s hard to trust faith because your fate tends to deny you for so many times. It’s hard for you to believe in hoping for something you expect to happen or have faith in someone to come in your life when wrong things ensue over and over again. But you still believe on its power. You believe in His will and His plans for you. And so you pray and trust Him.

Though the phasing of life is real fast, it is way too short to live it like you’re just existing.


You can live your life because you keep doing action to flight. You are capable of building a castle out of all the bricks that life is throwing at you. Yes it’s a hard journey that’s filled with obstacles and failure but you’re used to it now. Every day is a battle, but what’s waiting for you is worth the struggle.

***

The sky turned velvet, you’re on your way home now, as you walk through the narrow streets, the playing kids were gone to rest. The place became quiet as the peddlers earned enough today. You’re like them, they have routines same as yours, and they never stop.

So, you will wake up 5AM tomorrow to start the day, it’s the process. I know it’s tough, but so are you. For now, you can rest. Don’t worry. You’ll be fine. Okay?

Be The Reason Someone Believes In The Goodness Of People

Light from the fireflies appropriately represents hope, guidance, inspiration, and awakening

It’s past 12 midnight, there I was again — tired of counting sheep just to fall asleep. My brain begun to buzz and overthink things as my thought or two kept on racing which made me gnaw.

I’m lying in a comfy bed inside my serene room. As I close my eyes, I think of happy thoughts and take a deep breath. I tried playing the sound of blowing ocean waves in my head like I always do but, I can no longer hear it. It’s the distinctive sounds of crickets chirping outside my window echoing in my intellect —uhmm quite relaxing too.

I started to feel the cold wind blow into my face and absorbed the warmth of my own breath as I fill it in my lungs.

Subsequently, it felt like I was transported to another dimension. The cold wind vanished as I felt the heat of the sun striking onto my skin, the echoing cricket sounds turned into a looping and knocking rage of the vehicles in the city rhyming with the blabbering sounds of the people who pass by. I found myself crossing the street near the school of De Lasalle in my corporate attire.

Abruptly, a barefooted and dirty kid (evident on his white shirt) approached me and held my hand. I’m in a rush but I can’t do anything aside from being frozen at the moment because he might spit on me if I urged to pull back. Painted on his filthy face were the bruises and on his legs were marks maybe from a hit or violence. And his feet covered with sludge dirt walking into the city barefooted.

He’s way too young to be a beggar, not too old to provide the needs of his family. He needs help from the older one, an urge plead from the authority. This kid knows nothing about education aside from reading vandalism across the walls of the city. He’s been exposed to shenanigans, rascality or hooliganism maybe, instead of dreaming, playing freely, climbing trees, and running around here and there. His innocence was already filled with the foolish things of the world. Oh, poor boy.

Those thoughts ran through my mind to that moment he held my hand to ask for some pennies. I felt awful about my ruminations about him. I needed to give him food for he has still a long day to overcome and some coins to spend. As I get my wallet inside my bag to search for some, unconsciously the young boy was gone. He ran through the street and jumped inside the Jeepney (public transportation) to ask for money. I missed the chance of giving him a small help, a favor that could at least fade a little of his worries in life. For him to believe about the goodness of people. To give him hope that there are still some who offers help to those who are in need. But I failed, if I only didn’t hesitate at the first place.

I started to walk inside the hall of De Lasalle with the boy running in mind. I felt the wind blew hard on me, it was cold. The boisterous sounds turned rhythmic, chirp of the crickets calmed my mind. I found myself back in my bed, I opened my orbiting eyes and I saw the reality. It was a dream which brought me to a realization — a realization that everyone has an impact to the lives of others. In any form, whether you can help them, guide them or inspire them. Because it can also pave the way on how we can help ourselves. As we are to do unto others, as we hope they would do unto us in proper time.

And I want to start it now. Will you?

Life Lately 2020 Vol.1

It’s May and I haven’t seen the outside world for so long as it continues to stagger from the COVID-19 Pandemic— a gruesome phenomenon in which everyone thought that could happen only in movies. We’re being quarantined, and it happened to be extended as if the occurrence of this dangerous virus was unprecedented, a truth to be told. Also, curfew hours have been imposed in some places, which gave me The Purge vibe. We stay home where it’s safe and flinch in our seats every time the news drags new cases.

Life has changed dramatically for many of us, the usual daily routine has been greatly affected. Few turned to be a virtual being– stuck in front of their PCs and mobile phones. Meals have been scheduled for different times of the day. And for some, their body clock pattern has also changed. Well, we don’t have any choice anyway.

With the overabundance of time on hand and a changed mindset, I wanted to share the daily routine and habits that I have implemented on being quarantined.

Since I stayed home for so long now, here are a few things I’ve begun to make a habit:

#1 Write On My Everyday Journal

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A goal without a plan is just a wish. My journal is the haven for my thoughts. It is my safe place, to write what’s my plan, my dream, and I know I’m free from judgement. When I write, it feels like I’m talking to my inner self and saboteur. I’m glad I have this to spill everything, especially during the times when I’m feeling worst.

#2 Morning Workout

Before I’m doing a 30-day light challenge, I struggle a bit but it’s a great start and I pushed myself! Now I’m on my 45th day and I tend to do it every morning so that I have enough energy to make it through the rest of the afternoon and evening, the time I’m inclined to do other tasks.

#3 Check Emails and Do WFH Tasks

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I check my email first thing in the morning as I have important business to look after. Then straight ahead to school works if there’s any given task to accomplish or any task plan for the week to update and feed it on our online learning module. It is also the time to look for online training and certifications. And uh, my paper on graduate school.

#4 Leisure Activities

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Connecting with some of my best pals became a part of my leisure time when I’m away from Netflix (series/k-dramas), reading books, playing Mobile Legends: Bang Bang, TikTok, and social media. Since I don’t have bae, colleagues are always around. We had the opportunity to afford mutual investment on each other during this time.

#5 Nighttime Regimen

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This nighttime skin-care regimen aims to address my skin issues before the sleep begins. I usually use a water-based cleanser with brush to gently massage my skin, and rinsing my face with cold water. Having this routine every night will surely help me to slightly look better soon as I step on the outside world.

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You, what routine have you brought on being quarantined?

No matter what habits or patterns you have or having none at all, it’s totally fine as we are all coming from different uncertainties and struggles to cope up during this quarantine. You can be enough to be yourself. As long as You Are Doing Your Best To Cope And Survive, It’s Enough. You Are Enough.

Life is tough lately but so are we. Let’s just do what we can and God will do the rest. Soon, when all things went back to normal, we’re going to look back on this point of our lives, and we’ll be proud of ourselves that we never gave up.

Till my next blog

You Are Doing Your Best To Cope And Survive, It’s Enough. You Are Enough.

 

Deer in the headlights as I grasped all the sequels of what COVID-19 pandemic has brought us and the government-imposed community quarantine and social distancing.

As a sword to fight for productivity, certain people are being accustomed to working from home, engaging to webinars, whilst some are having their perfect fitspiration to tone up, or catching up with a multitude of books, decluttering storage and closets, and even trying new recipes like dalgona coffee or something that’s all over TikTok, so to speak.  I have even read and shared that Sir Isaac Newton had to work from home in 1665 as the University of Cambridge temporarily closed due to the bubonic plague, the time used for him to develop calculus and theory of gravity.

These whirlwind of productive activities are the onslaught feed of the internet nowadays for people to spend their extra time in a good manner. I’m in awe that I so admire people from pushing this through and taking the advantage of quarantining. What an impeccable perseverance which serves as a rebuttal to the overabundance of time and scarcity.

However, I feel extra pressured to keep hustling and fill my time to complete and finish the tasks I have. For instance, there are times that I take a glance at the finalization of my thesis in graduate school and later disrupted that I can’t seem to get it done for the past month since the enhanced community quarantine has been imposed. And I always tend to take a break and do some other things which can lighten my mood for a while or rest. Moments that I feel like I’m procrastinating or having an instinctive physiological response to take fight or flight. But I guess it’s something that I should not be invalidated for.

We are all going through this global pandemic phenomenon, and we are being inundated with tons of anxiety-inducing news about coronavirus update which really affects our mental health. We are stuck in this traumatic experience which adds to our emotional discomfort and unsteadiness. It’s indeed hard to process when we’re still in the battle, so it’s really not a bad idea to give some grace and be more gentle with ourselves during this time. It’s going to take some time, but that doesn’t mean that we fail as a human. Plus we still have to work on our regular routines. I’m not saying that we don’t need to exert hard work, but we also need to change our rhythms. It’s okay to just sit on a couch for a day, binge watch your favorite K-Dramas and movies on Netflix, play games, answer some gibberish, listen to music, discover obscure talents, browse on your feeds, connect with family and friends, support our frontliners, reflect, pray, meditate and most importantly take care of your mental health as we are all coming from different hurdles as we cope up during this quarantine.

Yes, we are all adjusting, sometimes it’s okay not to be productive, what we can do is just to trust the process. Don’t let other people define how you manage your time, we are no Isaac Newton, but we can be enough being ourselves to cope and survive. Live anyway, this too shall pass.

 

 

Take Solitude To Take Time For Mental Health, It Won’t Make You Fragile But It Will Keep You Strong

It’s a cliché for everyone to equate people who tend to be alone as dispirited, downcast, or anti-social. And for some, it’s an agony for them seeing people who desire in the solitude state. But the antipode, that state can be really putting someone in good shape for some aspects.

As for my mantra, I can be alone for as long as I like, doesn’t mean that I’m being lonely or depressed, it’s just that I can get fully accustomed to the feeling as I fully embrace it. Actually, choosing to be alone is very essential for my self-realization thus, it yields me to relax my mind to its utmost tranquility until I get motivated. Into the bargain, being alone also taught me a lot of valuable lessons as I live.

I established doing things I really enjoy. Whenever I’m constantly with the amity of other people, I always have to adjust in order for everyone to feel relished and it’s fine. But if the circumstance won’t go their way, I tend to apologize for their agitated feelings. There are also instances that I got to second-guess if I have done something exasperating for them to feel disgruntled. Egocentric it may sound but I want to yearn that the things I want should not be compromised. Unless I’m on my own where it’s easy to actually do everything I set my heart on. Whenever I got to do things I really enjoy, I felt freedom, and from loving it, there’s the feeling of happiness.

I ceased to deem for everyone’s validation. In the end, it will always be me to utter final words to every deed I’ll make. Yes, I value others’ opinion but I value more about what I think and how I would feel after. At times, I ought to ask for a bit of advice from a colleague or a friend. But, I always try to ask myself first, I guess, the more I do it alone I develop resiliency. I became sturdy to rely more on my decisions no matter what verdict people may give, whether right or wrong as long as I have pushed myself to be really capable of. As they say, If I live up from people’s approval, I’ll definitely die from their rejection.

Being in the solitude state helped me build a vigorous relationship with other people. Spending time alone for some time succored my mind to focus and recharge my brain. And the time consumed in solitude state gave me a substantial appreciation for myself. It also let me realize how valuable it is to have a relationship with other people where I’m unmindful before I have actually done my “me-time”. Upon rebooting myself I was able to really find what my desires are in life and create better choices to decide who I want to spend my life with. I know that at times I choose to take the road less traveled but I’m not going to walk alone.

And as for everyone, in the state of being alone, various things will be taught, and the greatest learning I’ve taken from it is that I have proven myself and let my cells dance knowing that I can do things that I have never imagined that I’m capable of, I was able to really know and be sure of who I really am in the midst of solitude.

Take solitude to take time for mental health — it won’t make you fragile but it will keep you strong. The sure thing is you’ll also find answers.