Notes to Self

I call it a day! Now, I am here in my personal space, a corner in our house where I contemplate matters, write a thought or two, and get my job done.

As I stare out the window, the rain keeps on pouring, the sound of it is a piece of music in my ears, a lullaby I find peaceful and relaxing. It calms my weary soul. It feels amazing how a moment like this makes me think of my affirmations to stay sane and have a positive outlook in life. I believe it’s not a bad idea to share with you all what notes-to-self I keep on reminding myself every day.

But let me tell you that growing up, I know I’ve been hard to myself, glass half empty at times, and can’t deny that I used to compare my self to others. Now that I’m older, people and different instances in my life were placed which taught me lessons I needed to learn, though, in a hard way, I was able to somehow pull this list off.

#1 Be a Better Advocate for Yourself

I learned to know myself more, what I’m capable of, what my wants are, and whatnots. I always speak my mind for I know what’s right and not. Now, I stride my way when to say yes and no for such circumstances. Along the process, you should know thyself, know thy need, and ways how to take action to get it.

#2 A Broken Heart can Teach the Best Lessons of Life

I believe that there’s no wrong person in everyone’s life. Every person has been handpicked by God to play a specific role, to shape us to the kind of person He predestined us to be. I know that He placed a person I needed to teach me lessons. I might be broken and memories may bring back but from that, I can say I became stronger. So, let us be grateful, trust God for He has done nothing wrong.

#3 Don’t Clean Up the Cobwebs, Kill the Spider

Some problems and hurdles occur at times, and sometimes on repeat. Clearing the cobwebs till there’s none is good but it’s definitely not a bad thing to end the main cause to stop what’s knocking me down over and over again.

#4 Put a Space In Between Things

Now and then, I believe there’s a perfect time to pause for a moment when I needed to rest, and in my pursuit of peace of mind. Also applies to say NO at times, because no matter how hard you try, you can’t do everything at once honestly.

#5 Save a Seat to the One’s Who Choose You

Not everyone deserves a seat in the table of one’s life. I’m very open and real about things but as I grew older, I realize how to save special seats to certain people whom I trust and value. We share the common thoughts and uplift each other’s spirit. Release those who turned their back, and make space for the certain people who choose to stay.

#6 You Do You

Always remember not to measure your progress using someone else’s ruler. Well, I don’t live up with other’s expectations, knowing that I can’t control how people interpret my action and energy. If they can’t see me, they are not for me, and I’m not for them as well. At the moment, I learned to realize I’m no longer worried by the trivial things that once used to drain me.


The sound of the rain is so inviting. I’m getting sleepy now. Anyways, here’s to another note to self: Invest to put myself to bed early, haha. There a lot of other notes and affirmations I have in mind, on the list are the main deals I realized and learned. What about you? I know you have your list too. It could be way longer than mine, I’d be glad to read it on the comment section below. Care to share your notes to yourself? Till my next one.

What Makes You Happy?

I used to worry about my current situation for the future, but I realized how much important it is to focus on myself for once.


Suddenly, I felt like getting away alone somewhere far, or with someone I love. Listen to my old records of High School Musical tapes as I drive fast. Catch the waves of the sea, smell its brine, and spend hours sighting sea stars. Take pictures of the sunset. Start bonfire on an island. Lay with the sand under my feet and go star gazing. Sleep in the tent and play with the shadows of my hand.

But, all these things are way too far from reality. The truth is I’m stuck that sometimes I feel like I’m losing the drive to play my game.

Mid June, I am bombarded with stuffs to do, a sword to fight the new normal realm. I so wanted to start it in no time because it requires time and my full potential to get it done. There is my passion but I’m lacking the drive towards it. These feelings hit me and I realized it seems like I’m doing things because it’s necessary and I keep doing so because it’s what’s needed to keep going.

I’m dealt with situations like these asking myself, do I really want to do this, or I am just not ready? It feels like I’m stuck because I’m pushing a door that says pull perhaps.

I’ve been having twain realizations about this matter for a while now. It says this isn’t what my body want to do, it is somehow I am being forced to do such, so everyone can see that I’m on the right track and I’m doing the right thing. But my inner saboteur says, this is just a phase, maybe I need to rest and recharge to start again.

Well, in the first place I won’t be placed to where I am now if I really have no sense of likeness about what I do frankly. Maybe the negative feelings which bother me are just signs which tell me it’s not the right time to do these stuffs which make me mentally drained. Seems like I’m getting hard on myself to keep pushing so people can’t see negative or let say weak sides of me, so to speak, so I can avoid getting the invalidation about what I do. Causes me to carry the weight of their expectations.

I don’t know but, it’s just so sad to feel that most people, including me, do stuffs because we’re living up with other peoples standards.

If you can relate with this, I believe in the end, what’s left on you is the choice. Maybe the choice you’ve been choosing all along is what’s right and can make you feel unworried, but the question is are you happy? For once in your life, choose something that is not just right, but rightfully can make you happy instead.

I still have a choice, so whenever I feel like exploring places, get away with my car, listen to music, go to the beach, and meet people — I would definitely do. I think it’s brave from choosing my own happiness than to sacrifice it over the rolling waves that I know I can push away and decide to start and fight again anyway.

So this time, Breathe. Feel alive. Choose happiness — it is free after all.