Birthday Blog | June 7, 2020

Honestly, I had no idea that this pandemic which we didn’t expect unveiled to drastically spread to cause lockdown which happened to be extended to its utmost until it reached my special day, indeed anxiety-inducing. We were under quarantine, and I had to adjust about the setup to what’s going to happen after all the plans I made in my mind prior to this.

So here’s the thing, I admit that I’ve had a birthday blues, this might sound an oxymoron but, yes I had to deal with it. Despite the fact that I should be excited anything about my special day like positivity, love, joy, attention, people, and other stuffs — it seemed to be a paradox, or something I’m feeling to contradict with what it should look like or what should I feel.

Maybe for some, it feels like they’re obligated to feel special and celebrate the day they were born. And as for me, I know this is supposed to be a good time and I’m blessed about the present and good things happened and still happening in my life, it’s just that there are tons of thoughts which gradually bug me to feel anxious on my birthday. Here are some:

#1 I’m aging another year. “Age is just a number” they say, but there’s no denying about the feeling and the changes which come along with getting another one. I got to always compare my present self to my younger self about my physical, mental, and emotional aspects. I know it will take at least a couple of times to accept it and look forward.

#2 I’m feeling the weight of others expectation. I believe it’s just really up to me on how I put action to make something happen for my sanity, career, family, or finances and to obtain it in a specific time as I age. You definitely can’t avoid some people to observe the gap between who you are and what they want you to have or become. But on another note, it’s easy to say for some that they don’t need anyone’s validation on how they should be living their lives because there’s always a perfect timing and chance for everyone. Which I think I should keep in mind also.

#3 My own expectations. I have this unhealthy attachment to things like expecting outcomes I wish I could control but I just couldn’t. My birthday serves every year as the reminder to accomplish things I wanted for a certain age. It allows me to contemplate the things which I haven’t accomplished yet which tends to create heartbreaks through my expectations. But I guess it’s time to count all the accomplishments I did whether big or small and feel proud of my capabilities I lacked to notice.


My 23rd Birthday 🎈

“It’s my birthday, so I’m celebrating everything.”

Despite all these things in my head, and on what’s happening around, my birthday was still a blast, and I am blessed to have my family, friends and colleagues to make me feel I’m showered with abundance of appreciation, love, and warmth for me to embrace this so-called birthday blues. I think it’s normal for a certain individual to feel sad around his birthday, which I experienced it myself but I overcome it.

How about you? Ever felt something to came up with realizations on your birthday? How do you spend your day?

I wonder what’s going to happen next. See you on my next blog.

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Franze Garcia

Head in the clouds. 💭

59 thoughts on “Birthday Blog | June 7, 2020”

  1. One thing is clear from your post, not to expect from others and happiness will follow as surprise. Well written!!!!

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    1. Belated happy birthday. Yes, I am excited all year for my birthday and when the day is there, I have anxious thoughts and a tinge of sadness. My brother’s birthday too was in quarantine. Different than normal celebration but memorable.

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  2. I hope you had a wonderful birthday! You are so young. Enjoy these years! I totally understand how you feel though. I also spent my birthday in quarantine. I think something about being stuck at home and having lots of time to think really brought out my birthday blues.

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  3. The pandemic actually disorganised a lot of things for everyone, but hey, it could have been worse. Keeping that in mind, we just have to make the most out of what we have and try taking the days one step at a time.

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    1. Be thankful na kahit di maganda mga nangyayari sa mundo nakapagcelebrate ka ng iyong kaarawan with your family and friends. Hopefully maging okay na ang lahat next month para di masira plan ko for my birthday! Happy Birthday!

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  4. Birthdays are very special. A reason to be thankful for the past year and grateful for the year to come! Enjoy!!

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  5. Happy birthday, Franze! It’s okay to feel that way. Always remember that 🙂 Get pressured so you will have the urge to aim for a better you. Most importantly, don’t forget that there are so much people who loves you! Stay Safe, Franze!

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    1. Being stuck at home on your birthday with all these realizations must have magnified the depth of your thoughts and feelings. Anyway, hope you had a great birthday.

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  6. I have my birthday blues too.. My birthday however was in May end. Belated happy birthday and yes, you are on a right path…

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  7. Happy 23rd Birthday! I can’t remember the time I celebrated birthday with that numbers haha! Enjoy life to the fullest and more fun adventures ahead.

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  8. Happy birthday! I think all these birthday blue thoughts are valid. I used to have those thoughts too when i was that age 😅 And I agree with you when you said count all the accomplishments you did whether big or small. I know it’s easier said than done but it’s really true, we should stop comparing ourselves with others and feel proud of ourself instead. 😀

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  9. Your concerns are understandable. Just don’t put too much pressure on yourself alright? You’ll get to where you wanna go, but do celebrate the milestones along the way. I’ll be celebrating my bday too this month, and I’ll be missing my friends a bunch. No black-out drinking this year i guess. Lol

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  10. When I reached past 30, I learned to ditch the expectation of others, especially what the senior society believed you should do at a specific age as if success is determined on how you follow religiously the “Ladder of Olden Norms” – ditching what makes you actually really happy. They would throw a lot of “what ifs” that could leave you toss and turning all night.
    Wishing you a productive year ahead!

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  11. Belated Happy Birthday! Good this you were able to still celebrate it. I hope everything will be back into normal and wishing you a more blessed year!

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  12. Belated happy birthday! You enjoyed it and that’s more important. Next year again, birthday blues will come out to bug you. And it’s a cycle. Just embrace it and enjoy the ups amd downs:-)

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  13. Happy birthday to you. For my birthday last month, I said that I want to be younger in spirit. It is working as I exercise more!

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  14. happy happy birthday! may you have a fun fun fun last half of the year of 2020 despite of us being in this situation! i hope anything you aspire will come true!

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  15. What matter is, you have your family and loved ones who remembered and celebrated your special day. Luckily, my birthday is January and wala pang covid case dito sa Pilipinas kaya nakapag-mall pa with family and friends

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  16. Happy Birthday! I’m glad you still had a good one. My birthday is next week and I plan on enjoying it even though things are different.

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  17. First of, happy birthday! I wish you that what your heart desires will happen. I agree that when you celebrate birthdays, you’ll feel you’re getting older and more responsibilities await. When I was in my early 20s until I was reaching 30, I want to stop time and just stay where I was. This year, I’ll be 31 and you know what? So be it. I’ll just live my life and ignore the numbers.

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  18. Happy birthday! It’s also my birthday on the 25th and I couldn’t more with #1! At first, I was like disappointed to the fact that I am not getting any younger. Haha. But I guess that’s life. Looking back, we’ve been though a lot. And with all the years we’ve lived, it made us who we are right now. Let’s just enjoy life! 🙂

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  19. Happy Birthday!!! Over the years I have learned to let go of my expectations about what I should have accomplished at each age. We’re all on our own journey at our own speed, and that’s OKAY!

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  20. The fact that you have celebrated your birthday is happy, nevertheless. But I hope you would have a happier one next year. Let us cross our fingers. 🙂

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  21. Happy birthday! I hope it’s memorable in a good way. My birthday is next month and I usually celebrate it with my family at home or dining out, doesn’t matter as long as I’m with them.

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  22. All in all it seems to me a really nice birthday party, Happy birthday and a thousand of these days!

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  23. Happy belated birthday!!! I hope you have an amazing 23rd year. Quarantine birthdays are no fun but I hope you made the most of it!

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  24. Happy birthday. It’s normal to feel anxious (although you are so young to feel that way, especially about being another year older..LOL). We are all human and imperfect and go through all kinds of emotions..sometimes all at the same time. Things could be worse. 🙂

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  25. The pandemic has ruined a lot of people’s plans and changed plans for the most part. I’m glad you got to enjoy your birthday, it looks like you had an amazing time!

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  26. Indeed it is really very amazing…Wish you a very very happy birthday may your upcoming life would be full of joy and happiness and with much success….Many many returns of the day…

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  27. Belated Happy Birthday. Don’t be sad. Be happy and thank God for all the blessings you receive. Hopefully, all will come back to normal once the virus is gone. Focus on your goals in life.

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  28. Happy Birthday, Franze! I remember turning 20 last year and getting reminders from my mom that I am still young and there is no need to rush. I thought becoming adult reels you to pressure and responsibility, but its really up to you if you take it easy or otherwise.

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  29. Belated Happy birthday, and glad you chose to celebrate it in your own way. It always feels grateful to celebrate another year and be given another year of opportunity.

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  30. Happy birthday! May the desires of your heart come true. Do not worry about aging. Responsibilities become more challenging as you mature but you can do it well. Do it afraid. Just live life to the fullest. God bless! ❤

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